Paranoia

I am paranoid.
My mind thinks and thinks and thinks and doesn't stop thinking. I watch you all the time, I wonder...
I decide, but I don't know what is truth as I have no facts.
I have even considered hiring a P.I. to help stop the madness. I need answers.
You do things that makes no sense to me.
Did I thwart your plans last night by going with you when you wanted to go out on your own....or were there no other secret plans.... How the fuck do I learn to remotely trust you ever again after all you have done.
You mentioned how cold I am, well dead people are cold, you say you are trying, to me, trying would be giving me the answers I need, the proof, but you won't, so I won't trust, how must I when its all such a big secret....
Somewhere, somehow this all needs to come to head and be dealt with accordingly!
Do you even see the damage you've done to me? Do you want to fix it?
Simple, talk to me, give me the answers!!! Help me stop this paranoia!