Another weekend over, the start of a new week, a week I am dreading... Firstly I must say I am very proud of myself, you left your device at home this morning whilst you were briefly out and I did not even touch it, I wasn't even tempted.
I did however see on your other secret place that some woman is very keen to meet up with you, I did ask you a few questions last night about her in a non dramatic way, she's married and you went to school with her and you apparently don't know her well yet she wrote to you that she wants to meet up soon... Another secret, is it innocent or should I be worried.
The issue with kids this weekend weighs heavily on me, I left the 3 to their own devices in fear of jealousy, the 1 is jealous of the other and you too get jealous so I'm stuck in nowhere land not knowing how to give each attention without the other being jealous.
This flu has taken alot out of me, I think the hell you put me through has a lot to do with it.
Mr C commented on Saturday when I was at work that I had lost that spark in my eyes. I guess that's what happens when you are dead inside.
My mind has completely taken over, leading to a new type of madness, I convince myself of various scenarios to do with you and your secret life as I never know any truths.
My stepmom is going in for a big operation soon, you offered to make a plan to get me there so I can help my dad and stepmom, I did speak to her about it and as much as I am dying to go I am stuck in a rock and a hard place, to leave my home and worry if my cats are being fed and knowing you are free to get up to your hobbies and do who knows what when I am not there, the thought of that is a killer.
Time to get back to work, enter into my abyss....
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