I haven't been to work for two days, I'm not myself, I'm angry, I'm lost, I'm beyond irritation. I couldn't handle going to work knowing I couldn't save some of the dogs with the fate they are faced with, I didn't want that to be my decision again, it's killing me, I don't know how much longer I can handle the decisions and emotions I am faced with at work... My heart aches for all the animals, it's taking its toll on me emotionally and I don't know how to deal with it, I have nobody to talk to, I can't open up to you, that door is shut closed, you closed it.
Your world belongs only to you, it pisses me off. Married to your iPad and bb, I must be awful company if you have the need to chat and occupy yourself with everyone but me. I am so alone, it hurts, I don't want to be around anyone, I want to stay isolated and die in my own misery. I miss my mom so much, it feels like she is calling me from the grave, my brother is depressed too,Mathis woman will be the death of him.
Is it our destiny to go the way in which my mom went, suicide?
Does happiness even exist, I wonder if I will ever know before its too late.
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