Empty

Today I feel so empty, trying to compose myself is so difficult. I would prefer to be home, in my bed, crying my heart out, my heart which I thought would never tick again but unfortunately it does... If only it would stop, put to total silence...
Its been a build up of emotions, I finally let them out, the consequences are that of total silence, heartache...
Have to stop the tears, just want this day to pass, want this week to pass, need to be alone, always alone...

There is no place for love, not in this day and age, you are too pre-occupied by your hobbies, your friends, there is no place for me, yet you say I make you happy, yes, you are happy as you fit me into your space as you feel fit...

I used to believe in romance but that too does not exist... You don't see the hurt, the pain that you cause me as nothing is about me, nothing ever was...

I am nothing, I am nobody, I am empty... :-(

Complicated...

This thing called life and love is so complicated, it doesn't have to be but it is... I finally thought I found the one yet it hurts so much to feel so shut out. Things move so quickly these days, heading into the 3rd month and I still can't figure you out, I still don't know who you are...
I opened my broken heart to you, thought you could mend it, it shatters more daily, I don't like feeling, emotions, I'd rather be dead inside...